life

this afternoon, i saw a forum about steve jobs, the founder of apple company. he said something that impress me, if today will be the first day, or maybe also the last day of you, what should you do? he added that, after he get fired from his own company, he give some speech in an university. that time, a girl that let him feel interest, also listen to his speech. after the speech, he try to ask the girl whether can he dine with her or not. however, he had to attend a meeting after the speech and it's important for him. anyway, when he think that, if today will be last day that he met the girl, how will he feel in the future? he forget about the meeting and he tried to arranged all his time to date the girl. that girl, is his wife now. this story let me feel impressive. ^^

and during evening, i went to a restaurant with my family to celebrate my brother birthday. after celebrate with him, i am going to new jusco for watching a movie. that time, i just ride my motorcycle as usual. suddenly, when i am on the way to the place, there is a motorcycle comes out suddenly without notice that i am coming from behind. i banked the behind, and i fly away and bank toward an avanza. in that moment, i am asking my self, when i fall down there, will i get up again? will i survive after this serious accident? and my helmet also fly away from my head. i didn't feel anything at first, just feel very blur, and straight get up and walk slowly there. i didn't notice everything and i just phone to my brother that i am involving with an accident, and i am telling my friends that i can't watch movie with them as this accident was too serious. i feel very blur and dizzy that time when i am heading to hospital. i lost all my strength and sense when i am lying down on the bed there.

in that moment, i think back the forum that i read just now about steve jobs. i think about my mom, my family suddenly when they are here together with me. and, i think back my father. is he pushing me so that i won't bank to the car just now? because during that accident, i am closing my eyes and i feel that i will fly to the car. but, i didn't. when i opened my eyes, the car is beside me with my motorcycle. i am also glad that my head didn't knock everything when my helmet fly away from my head. the conclusion is, i really scared. i scared that my life will be ended in this way. i prayed hard to god after discharged from hospital.

the last thing what i am stating about steve jobs story with this accident is related actually. when i am dizzy, i am thinking of someone that left me few months ago. i don't know why i will feel like that when i am already decide don't want to think about HER anymore so that i can concentrate with everything that i want to do now until i wish that something wonderful will happen in the future that everything will come back to me. i am looking to my phone, facebook, and think that, should i tell her, in that few seconds that almost cost my life, i miss her? i don't know but, if she has read this, don't need reply or tell me anything. i will be fine and the main thing is, good luck for everything to you^^