创业 vs 打工

最近我当上了监制与录影师的学徒。虽然没有固定的收入，也没有固定的工作时间，但是我还是对这些兴趣感到满意。听师傅说，在这半年里面，他希望我们三个可以学完所有的录影技巧，然后接下来的，就是我们取代他完成所有录影的工作。不过，他希望的就是，当他要我们到的时候，我们一定到。也就是说，我就算在这段时间找到了工作，也得安排我自己的时间。这是我最近有点烦的原因。打工的话，我必须选择放弃一些时间在录影。选择录影的话，我的收入会很不固定。虽然工作的收入会比较固定和比较高一点，不过我的时间很没有自由，而且要创业的路很更远。如今，师傅决定要投资我们三个。他不会那么随便接受任何人当他的学徒。他会选择我们，是因为我们的作品有看头。所以，他让我们提早创业。他会把所有的经验与技巧交给我们，再提供一些器材给我们。这是个很好的开始，也是很好的学习时间。下个星期，就是我们帮人家录影结婚mv了。虽然我们没有那么多的经验，不过，只要尽力而为，收获也不小了。

梦想与兴趣，就在这个时候开始了。加油~

life

this afternoon, i saw a forum about steve jobs, the founder of apple company. he said something that impress me, if today will be the first day, or maybe also the last day of you, what should you do? he added that, after he get fired from his own company, he give some speech in an university. that time, a girl that let him feel interest, also listen to his speech. after the speech, he try to ask the girl whether can he dine with her or not. however, he had to attend a meeting after the speech and it's important for him. anyway, when he think that, if today will be last day that he met the girl, how will he feel in the future? he forget about the meeting and he tried to arranged all his time to date the girl. that girl, is his wife now. this story let me feel impressive. ^^

and during evening, i went to a restaurant with my family to celebrate my brother birthday. after celebrate with him, i am going to new jusco for watching a movie. that time, i just ride my motorcycle as usual. suddenly, when i am on the way to the place, there is a motorcycle comes out suddenly without notice that i am coming from behind. i banked the behind, and i fly away and bank toward an avanza. in that moment, i am asking my self, when i fall down there, will i get up again? will i survive after this serious accident? and my helmet also fly away from my head. i didn't feel anything at first, just feel very blur, and straight get up and walk slowly there. i didn't notice everything and i just phone to my brother that i am involving with an accident, and i am telling my friends that i can't watch movie with them as this accident was too serious. i feel very blur and dizzy that time when i am heading to hospital. i lost all my strength and sense when i am lying down on the bed there.

in that moment, i think back the forum that i read just now about steve jobs. i think about my mom, my family suddenly when they are here together with me. and, i think back my father. is he pushing me so that i won't bank to the car just now? because during that accident, i am closing my eyes and i feel that i will fly to the car. but, i didn't. when i opened my eyes, the car is beside me with my motorcycle. i am also glad that my head didn't knock everything when my helmet fly away from my head. the conclusion is, i really scared. i scared that my life will be ended in this way. i prayed hard to god after discharged from hospital.

the last thing what i am stating about steve jobs story with this accident is related actually. when i am dizzy, i am thinking of someone that left me few months ago. i don't know why i will feel like that when i am already decide don't want to think about HER anymore so that i can concentrate with everything that i want to do now until i wish that something wonderful will happen in the future that everything will come back to me. i am looking to my phone, facebook, and think that, should i tell her, in that few seconds that almost cost my life, i miss her? i don't know but, if she has read this, don't need reply or tell me anything. i will be fine and the main thing is, good luck for everything to you^^

interest vs better job~ 兴趣 vs 更好的工作

i just graduated from college and finish my diploma in E-business. the good thing is, finally i can leave this college and don't need to study anymore. the bad thing is, i have to independent without anyone helps anymore to find a job. i am searching for a better job nowadays that related with my course. however, it's quite difficult to find especially in higher paid. this is what i am searching at first. the first job that i worked after graduate was LOLLA SDN.BHD, a chemical factory that produce cleaning products that owned by YB Goh Leong San of DAP. he wanted me to learn everything at there but he discourage me to work there forever because it's not worth at all. the first few days i worked, it's quite okay for me because i learnt a lot there. however, a week later, i feel my old injured part at my leg suddenly pain again. and that few days, i had to walk slowly and always hesitate, should i continue before it get worse? after few days, i finally decided, i will resign to recover my leg. plus, i feel that chemical, is not a kind of thing that i really want to learn even though i know a lot there. anyway, the main conclusion is, i can't carry any heavy things anymore.

i try to find a better job. however, when i read a book that the title is "martial arts movie secret", my mind has changed. inside the book, it wrote down those martial artist and director stories such as jackie chan, sammo hong, yuen biao, donnie yen, tsui hark, john woo and more. all their life, almost same with mine. as they said, they choose this way, making movie was based with their interest. when they were young, they didn't deserve anything. especially some of them that worked in high paid company that made them lost their way, they choose to quit their better job to pursue their dream as film maker. as they said, they didn't get anything better for their first few films as their experience and popularity was still poor. however, they never give up yet. they always try to change and let everything better in every new film of them and finally they deserve all the best.

this is what i am going to think now, if i choose any better job, i have to work like a slave forever. plus, i am going to handle those big debts that i can't afford at all. my dream and interest will just gone easily. if i choose interest job about video shooting, maybe i can't earn any high paid. but, what i can earn is, experience. at least, all these experiences was what i want to deserve rather than in any better job. i love video shooting and always want to shoot any video that could become a short video clip or short movie.

maybe my mom will discourage me to choose this way but, i am only 21 years old now. even though i will failed also, just take it as experience. because, this is my interest rather than any better job that could let me live like inside hell. plus, if someday i really deserve the best with this interest, i will start to do my own business that related with what i studied in college. this is my plan and this time, i want to let it work! ^^

dream~梦想

我的梦想很简单，但是很不容易办得到。凭我一个人的能力，绝对不可能完成的。这个梦想是，我想篇写故事，然后让它出现在荧幕上，让所有人欣赏。这是我从小到大的一个梦想。每当我这么说的时候，很多人会批评，叫我别发梦了！没钱没才华，别学任何明星这样做个明星梦！这些话，我到现在还记得。因为，今天，我要让这些话，永远在我心里消失！我承认，我小时候没任何潜能，只会发梦，整天只会想有等于没有的东西。但是也因为如此，我平时无论写作文还是日记，我都会写得很根据我的想象力。虽然每次被老师与同学批评很无聊，但是，我很天真地说，那是我的作风。我超喜欢武打片，所以我很喜欢想象自己写几部属于自己的武打片，然后拍成短片或电影，让大家观看我的作品。以前老实说，拥有摄影机的人不多，再加上很多东西不够先进，所以我以前只可以发梦。现在，梦，随时都可以成真。我认识了最佳伙伴因为我们都拥有共同的兴趣。

我们的第一个作品，就是站在台上做个现场表演。那时候是我们第一次表演，而且是表演功夫。由于练习的时间很逼紧，所以我只可以写很简单的功夫表演，再和没太多功夫经验的朋友们一起表演。当天的表演，因为某个“垃圾乐队”表演的过度无聊，导致现场观众闷到离开了。当我们开始表演的时候，现场很清静。我和朋友们投入了这个表演，好让观众们欣赏。虽然观众不多，但是他们还是很开心的观看我的作品。表演的过程中，由于发生了一点错误，我还是很坚持地演完它。我承认表演结束过后，我到厕所发泄我的脾气。因为，本来要让百多名观众欣赏的我，竟然因为“垃圾乐队”，导致观看的观众不到一百个。彩排了两个月，虽然得到的掌声是热烈的，不过我们都知道，如果我们先表演的话，我们是全场最热门的。





本来今年很想再表演的。不过，我们都毕业了。我们不会再表演，因为我们要拍戏多过于表演~如今我向很多摄影师，导演，监制等人指教与学习关于电影学。我们拍的戏不是很够理想，但是我看到的是，我们在成长，进步。我们还年轻，所以还有很多东西是要学的~最近有新作品要开拍了。祝我们成功吧~