What do i want?

I am already 27 years old, and this topic is what i always thinking of. I already own a house, own a car, own a career, and also own a girlfriend which will becoming my wife soon. Time passed with just the moment we close up our eyes, and i always think that, do i already get what i want? Back to 6 years ago, all of my wish before 27 years old, is 80 percent done. Maybe next year or another year, will achieve my target. However, i still never plan for another 10 years later. I still dont know what is my target for that time, and also i still thinking and hesitating. Should i still working like now? Or i already own a company? Or maybe i retired young by getting everything easily? It is still unknown. I still thinking about this.


Recently i am getting much more active in sports than before such as running, badminton and swimming. I feel that i am getting young again with such physical fitness. Just because of to get better health without any stress and unbalance diet, i suddenly feel that the time has moved slower and i quite enjoy my lifestyle now. I always see my family getting happier and achieve what they wanted, and my girlfriend also already fulfilled with what she should get. This is what i always thought of god bless us, when we never do anything harmful to each other in mankind life. We always think positive, and let god judge it well for which is good or bad.


I always want my mom be happy and enjoy enough in her entire of life, which she witness that i bought her a house with my own efforts. I also wish that next time can bring her to travel everywhere that she dream of, as my dad never do it before. As some people said, i always want people that important to me be better than me, but in reality, nobody know what do i want, and include my self, still unknown what is exactly that i want for myself? I will solve this questions after this month.😉

smash

I am always play badminton recently, and what i found that, i improve a lot in term of experience, defense, skill, speed and smash. Everyone always ask me, how come my smash like getting much more faster and fierce than before? My answer for this is, each of time that i smash with all of my body strength, i will think about to kill the one that made me down and sad before. The shuttle will become the victims, the racket string will be breaking fast, and of course, the anger inside of me is bursting there. I dont want to live in complicated anymore. I just want to live in simple, which is without any trace, frustrating and getting better than ever. Sounds like crazy, however, this is how i feel nowadays. Since from failed into achievement, from normal into improvement, i can feel that i am in mad. But just that, i still can live as normal person. All of the bad things, i always burst out inside the shuttle. This is how i play badminton, and how i made myself getting more improve. Never give up is my key.

被唤醒的巨龙

最近看回了一部戏，它是一部战争片，片名为 pearl harbor. 这部戏有的部分是真人真事，同时也是我最爱看的一部。同时，我最近也从这部影片，得到了一些灵感和节奏感，来让自己体会与改变。我这么写的主要原因，不是因为自己的私事，或者爱情，而是我公事上要求的改变。我承认这2年，我的工作比以前繁忙。我也承认，我觉得我的顾客越来越多，导致我自己有点爱理不理了。这种性格，我在这部戏里面看得到。我认为我很像美国，被很多人捧得很像很厉害，但是事实上，被日本的计谋来攻击，导致到自己的损失惨重，的确会让自己感到很弱，而且自己还是在沉睡的那个巨龙。那个日本将军过后也补充了一句，他们的预计很成功，但是也顺便唤醒了巨龙，导致接下来的战争会开始难打。

这就是我最近面对的问题，但是，我觉得问题不大，也开始解决了。所以我认为，今年应该好好地发挥，让自己变得比以前更强大。我当然也希望，不要一世人在打工。我也很想花更多时间陪我家人与爱人。就像这部戏一样，我想快快完成任务，然后就回家过着平安的生活

always

i am watching a korean drama recently, which the name is descendants of the sun. i am not a drama lover especially korean, because it's bored for me all the time which i only could watch some which i thought it's interesting. anyway, this drama is really nice and romantic enough. and i addicted with the song of this drama, which is nice and meaningful.

When I see you, everything stops
I don’t know since when

One day, you came to me like a dream
You shook up my heart
I knew that it was destiny

I Love You
Are you listening?
Only You
Close your eyes

Your love came scattered with the wind
whenever, wherever you are
whenever, wherever you are

ohohoh love, love, love

How did I come to love you?
I tried pushing you out but my heart recognizes you

I Love You
Are you listening?
Only You
Close your eyes

Even if everything changes, this won’t change
You are my, I am your love

Even if you take a little time to come back
Even if you pass over me
It’s alright, I’ll be here for you

I Love You
Don’t forget
Only You
The confession of my tears

Your love came scattered with the wind
whenever, wherever you are
whenever, wherever you are

遗憾

最近看到一个贴，关系到人死了之后的遗憾与临死前的留言。有其中一句，真的刺激了我。

小时候很讨厌的大人们，不知不觉，我开始觉得自己越来越像他们了。还没成家，还没立业，还没完成梦想，还没做自己要做的事情等等。不知不觉，原来我还真的是很多东西还没做的。这些年来，只为工作与事业而拼，甚至慢慢地忘记了当初的梦想是要做些什么。虽然现在有家，有车，有事业成就，只是差了自己的家庭。虽然这个事业造就了现在的我。但是我也觉得这个事业，曾经令我失去了不少东西。我错过很多时间，青春，然后直接慢慢的进入了中年期。我曾经的朋友们，一个接一个地失去联络。但是也一个接一个地关系惨淡。我变得很不喜欢参朋友，只喜欢找几个好谈的朋友而已。以前热爱旅行的一班人，已经全部失去联系了。是不是因为这个社会很残酷，导致我们关系破裂，还是每个人的心里，藏着没良心的心魔？


我真的不知道。只是知道，接下来的日子，应该要好好地过。我会继续工作，还是创业，或者是流浪，说真的，预测不到的。这个贴，也唤醒了我，不要被社会个影响原本的自己。曾经失去的朋友，一个接一个地慢慢有联系。但是对我而言，这些联系只是生意。所谓的兄弟情，还是友情，真的是不存在了。

岁月是残酷的。趁现在拥有一切的时候，好好再计划自己的人生。至少，也会让自己过的更好，更充足。