almost a year i think, i never contact to you anymore. since you have new wonderful life, i decided for not finding you, even for just a call, or just say hi. i just dont want think about you anymore, and let my self continously live in nightmare everyday. i cant sleep well every night, since the day you dont want to come out to meet with me. and the more worse is, i cant be cheer up at all, since you decided to break up with me, and then, the most terrible is, i cant become as usual anymore, as you never bother me at all. i always think about, hey babe, can we astarted it all over again? i cant forget everything about you. i really miss you and love you. i need you so much in my life. you are the first and the last for me. i will walk to ur hometown and propose to you when i am ready to do so. etc...
this is what i always told you, and there is so many sweet memories between me and you. but those memories, really hurt me for so long. almost two years i feel suffer that i cant live well. and thats why, almost in two years time, i never celebrate my birthday at all, as during my birthday, you and me have just become a couple. i still remember that night actually. hehe.
anyway, i decided to remove you from my facebook. and then, i decided to change my contact number for not contacting you anymore. i also found that i am not in the part of your life, as i am just a guy that walk by only in your life. i dont know how are you now, but as can be seen, you live very well, and always have someone take good care of you. its great and congratz to you. as you decided to dump me last time, is the best decision ever. you always told to me that you want to have vocation at bali with the one you live. you already did, because that guy wasnt me. you always said you wish can cook together with the one you loved. you did, but that one also wasnt me. you always said you will have a baby with the one you loved. for this, i can be very sure, you will deserve it without me. ^^
as you wish, finally i get the one i loved, as she also love me more, as you did before. she never disappoint me, willing to wait for me, never hurt me, always accompany me in no matter how bad or how good am i. i really love her, and surely will marry her someday. maybe i wish that still will be you but, it could only live in memories. i still remember every night, we could walk until morning, for just because of you cannot sleep and insomnia. i still will miss pochi, our baby dog. i dont know how is she now. just hope that she is fine.^^
i still hesitating should i wish you or not, but its not necessary anymore. i just can wish you right here. good luck for your future. we will never meet anymore, and maybe if someday we meet at which country, i will still just say hi to you. thank you for appearing in my life, and become my first love, and let me learn everything. good bye, is more suitable for me to use it now, as we wont see each other again. take care, Jessica^^
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