time, life, passion

i worked in this company for almost one and a half year. for me, i deserved a lot, and grew a lot with various kind of experiences and problem settlements. what i had learn now a days is, never try to avoid problems from own customer as we need to keep on our business for long term. however, day by day, i can feel that, my time in my life, is only for working. i am only 23 years old, but, i feel like, my life is getting meaningless for working only. those colleagues did treat me very well, and i like this place. but, someday, i still need to move on, especially to chase my dream. i still have a lot of thing has not completed yet, as i always purchasing my dream before i entered this company. i know that my boss will never let me go in the future when the time has come, as he really treat me very well if compared to my previous bosses. my future, still unknown and blank now a days.

everything for me now is unpredictable. i never wonder that i am going to have a nephew as he is 2 months old now. yea, he is cute and very active. i also have a girl friend now which we already coupled for almost 8 months. i love her very much. and today was my grandma birthday, and we celebrated at JB. this is the first time i bring her came to JB, to meet with all of my relatives. besides that, this is also the only first time she came to JB. and then, due to working problem, i need to stay at JB for almost 2 weeks to finish my duty here. i need to ask my brother send her back to melaka. in this moment, i feel down actually. i think that, since when, i can try to work without outstation, and be more freedom with what i want in my life. now i think it very clearly, as i don't really like to work outstation. i want to spend more time with family and girlfriend. i just think that, it's already enough for me to work and travel in peninsular of malaysia. and i always plan that, i will consider my self to leave this working place in 2015, and do those things that i wanted. why i will think like that? it's because, i read an article before, don't need hesitate what you think, just do it what you want, because you just work for life, but not let the work control your whole life.

that means, one more year i will remain this job, and after that, try to pursue my future. i never feel regret of thinking about this, because, this is my life, and i should do it what i want and GOD always show me the way of success. never felt sorry to the one that hired you for work, but just will felt sorry for yourself that never pursue your dream when still young. don't think, just do it.