2013~

the last day of 2012, i live as usual, work as usual, and just let the time passed. when i flash back, i really gained a lot of experiences in this year. i learnt to know, don't trust anybody, but must let everyone trust on you. and also, i had learn how to be more independent. plus, i learnt that never change but always be my self. i also had learn how to let go those things that never belong to me, and also never ever force my self or giving much pressure for let everything gone bad. i went to north and south of malaysia this year and it's very great experiences for me. i tried all my best to achieve the best in my career and it's great. boss and managers feel happy for me as i did improved my self now. i really appreciated what they did and help to me. i am really feel thankful to god that i joined this company as it's taught me a lot about society life. i never thought of becoming a salesman before because i dislike to communicate with peoples. however, i tried, to like this job, because it's really helpful for my future.

this is what i got in the year of 2012, and start from 2013, i want to beyond my self. this year, my boss will send me to work and handle in sabah market. i will appreciate this chance and try my level best, so that his trust on me is worth. if really everything can go through, and my target in this company has reached, i will try to move on, to my dream place. maybe it's early for me to plan, but, someday i will do it~ happy new year 2013 to everyone anyway because we are survivors from 2012~^^

the revert clockwise~

ㄅㄆㄇㄈㄉㄊㄋㄌㄍㄎㄏ　ㄅㄆㄇㄈㄉㄊㄋㄌㄍㄎㄏㄐ
ㄅㄆㄇㄈㄉㄊㄋㄌㄍㄎㄏ　ㄅㄆㄇㄈㄉㄊㄋㄌ
迷迷濛濛　你給的夢　出現裂縫　隱隱作痛
怎麼溝通　你都沒空　說我不懂　說了沒用
他的笑容　有何不同　在你眼中　我不再受寵
我的天空　是雨是風　還是彩虹　你在操縱

恨自己真的沒用　情緒激動
一顆心到現在還在抽痛
還為分手前那句抱歉　在感動

穿梭時間的畫面的鐘　從反方向　開始移動
回到當初愛你的時空　停格內容　不忠

所有回憶對著我進攻　我的傷口　被你拆封
誓言太沉重淚被縱容　臉上洶湧　失控

RAP~ 城市霓虹　不安跳動　染紅夜空
過去種種　像一場夢　不敢去碰　一想就痛
心碎內容　每一秒鐘　都有不同　你不懂
連一句珍重　也有苦衷　也不想送

寒風中　廢墟煙囪　停止轉動　一切落空
在人海中　盲目跟蹤　別人的夢　全面放縱
恨沒有用　療傷止痛　不再感動　沒有夢
痛不知輕重　淚水鮮紅　全面放縱


although i don't really like jay chou, but this old song was really meaningful~

end of the world (if)

dooms day, as been predicted by mayan calendar, stated that this is the end of the world, or the new age of the earth. some stated that the world will turned to darkness for 3 days 3 night that without the sunlight. some also stated that there are many disasters such as tsunami, earthquake, volcano exploding, big storm, tornado, ice age etc. everyone know it's not true. but, who knows? who know that someday it will comes suddenly without our own knowledge?


let's say if there is the end of the world, what will i do then? sometimes i will think about it, do i still working as usual, and dead without knowing it already happened? or maybe it happened when i was sleeping and never wake up anymore after that? its really unpredictable.... however, i will still think that, before the end of the world, the first thing that i want to do is, accompany my family to enjoy our last reunion dinner. other thing is, i will create a farewell party to everyone, and lets celebrate our life before it's end. and then, i also will call to everyone that i used to know, and tell them that, nice to meet y'all in my life. and one last thing is, maybe, i will tell someone that i used to love before, and scream it loud that, i still love you although it's coming to be ended forever. ^^ afterthat, i will sit down, closing my eyes, and waiting the end coming.

sounds crazy what i wrote here, but anyway, i am telling the truth here before it happened as it won't be late as i tell my wish here. =)