goodbye sad 2011~^^

2012

在这里，我祝大家新年快乐~把2011 年不愉快的事情给忘了，开心地迎接新一年。这一点，我做到了^^ 很多人可能好奇我为何到现在没有女友。我现在澄清，其实，我是拥有过的。可惜的是，在一起的时间太短了。我尊重她的理由，所以决定放下一段时间，也很天真地希望有一天她会再给我机会。但是，我感觉上是被玩弄了。这接近七个月以来，我尝试见她，找她，很想跟她说话。可是，命运真的是在玩弄我，我没有一次是真正见到她。更令到我想不到的事，她变了。这是真的……我所认识的她，不像她了……以前我们都很多话讲……久而久之，突然变得很陌生……感觉上，以前的她，已经死了。其他的，我不方便说了。因为尊重她，我决定在今年开始，放下她吧^^2011年的最后一天，我喝了醉酒……这是我从戒酒的前几年开始，第一次喝的醉。这是因为喝了醉酒，我可以把心中的每句真心话,都说了出来。这一天过后，我感到很舒服。我可以很彻底地改变自己，成为以前的我。 以后的恋情，是看在缘分了。有可能会是她？也有可能会是别人吗？我不清楚……我只知道，当初幼稚的我，经过每一段错误，现在成熟了。我不会把期望放太高，只希望以后会遇到懂得爱我与珍惜我的人^^


学业方面，我还是决定要离开马六甲一段时间，去别个地方求学。虽然之前很想在马六甲发展，但是由于觉得自己还很嫩，所以我应该要去别个地方，尝试外面的生活，才来决定要怎么发展。另一个原因也是因为我想把这里的伤心事给忘掉，所以才会这么决定。


14-16 号要到新加坡旅游了~这是我有生以来，第一次用户照出国~虽然是在马六甲的新加坡公司工作，但是有时候也很好奇新加坡是个怎样的国家。我希望今年可以顺顺利利，过完这一年吧~^^

last time vs present~

morning-

last time- sleep until at least 9-12pm, get ready for class, hanging out with friends.

now- sleep until almost 7am, wash up, get ready to work.



afternoon-

last time- finish class, having high-tea with friends, until evening.

now- working/ take some break alone.


evening-

last time- going to swim, gym work out, badminton, futsal.

now- lying down on bed after finish work, ready to take dinner and sleep straight.


party-

last time- will organize with friends and enjoy it fun.

now- only will join party if friends organize by their own/ depends on mood sometimes.



dinner with family-

last time- before dinner, will ask friends where to play. after dinner, will go meet them straight.

now- before dinner, will wait my mom and take dinner together. after dinner, will accompany her to hypermarket or any where else./ spend more time with her.


eager-

last time- wish that will have a girl friend, having sweet romance date, and married at last.

now- after achieved, feel that i am not suitable for these things now. i much prefer to do something best to my mom now, as my father failed to do so previously.


dreams-

last time- can be a perfect scrip writer, director.

now- can be success in everything, including careers, love.


friendship-

last time- many friends can be asked for outing.

now- depends on moods either stay at home/ outing.


communication-

last time- don't like to talk with strangers.

now- knowing more peoples is good for own future.


critics-

last time- will never accept someone critics/ stubborn with own decisions.

now- will learn everything from mistakes/just accept.


activity-

last time- while already thinking want to hanging out with family, but suddenly has get invited by friends for badminton, will join the game for surely.

now- when going to accompany family for dinner, will ignore those invitation such as badminton, movies, and everything that will spoiled for me to accompany my family.


career-

last time- wish that can get a good paid job, and work for the rest of life.

now- never ever thinking about to work like a slave forever!



trust-

last time- will trust those are really trust-able.

now- trust my self~^^



love-

last time- will only love the first, and wish that she will be the last.

now- waiting for miracle^^